TheKaless

Hey there lovely pieces of.... whatever you are.

I've been giving it some thought, and well...
I think it's time I stop kidding around and start putting an effort into things. SO!
I have decided to start cleaning up and using all my countless profiles and such all over the internett. Updating whatever I have more, and having a purpose behind it.

I will delete the norwegian blog here (En Random Mari) and the story blog (The M Story) because I'll move it elsewhere. The norwegian blog will be "moved" to a norwegian site called blogg.no, and storyblog will be moved to my own domain MDTlore.com .

I'll work more on the gaming blog, doing more reviews and maybe some playthrough some day.
I'll also start updating my deviantart profile, but whatever so called "art" I make will also be visible at the mdtlore.

After I've cleaned up and started going for real, I think it's time for me to start promoting it a bit. Building a network of strangers, sure. But promoting to friends and family, that's worse. I'm not really that found of people knowing everything. Not people I know in real live at least.

But all of this...Well!
I want to make it happen!

Cya around.

Alright, I can't possibly be the only person on the forsaken planet who slightly arises from the dead every monring?

SO.DAMN.TIRED.

didn't sleep at all saturday, casue i was sitting up all night talking and things with friends. was at a small LAN with my friends, and a couple of them got badly pissed off since they didn't get to sleep. i hit them with my sausage. they'll never mess with me again.
c:


anyhow, now i's that day of the week that we're all so damn excitet about
MONDAY
randomly I could tell you the weekdays in norwagian

Mandag - Monday
Tirsdag - Tuesday
Onsdag - Wensday
Torsdag - Thirsday
Fredag - Friday (FRIDAY FRIDAY EVERYBODEHS GETTING DOWN ON FRAYDAY!!)
Lørdag - Saturday
Søndag - Sunday

now either go back to sleep or do some schoolwork or somthing.

Hey sweethears

So this friday i'm spending as usual?
Sitting on the floor at my best friends house (she's got heat cables in the floor) and almost falling asleep after kidding around with some random makeup.

Guess what.
Well, not much of a guess after reading the title, but sure!

now enjoy your evening.
I'll be whatching you as you sleep.
<333333 ;;;;;;;*

Well, halloween might be over but who cares!?

i dressed up at halloween, the weekend after and today ((:
i dressed up as.... wait for it....

Asian school girl.

daymn i'm so amazingly creative yea?
i am an asian so well, you see how big an effort i made!


cute right?

Alright....


My natural hair color is black.
since the summer i started dying it.

Now.... well, for some time i've been walking around with a sorta purple-red-brown-ish color on the front half of my hair. The rest have remained naturally black all the time.

Well, yeasterday my friend started dying it and stuff ceuse she wanted dip dye. And guess who took the rest after she was finished?

I am now a person with black hair in the back, red-brown-is in the front and some sort of yellow-orange-blond-ish kinda... underneath? hard to explain, just.... picture....

Not that i'm the worlds biggest fan of Opeth, but i do like them!

Good evening!

Well, it's sunday!
I had a guest over for the weekend, my lovely friend Ragnhild Killi!
I just call her Killi.

Now, well, i'm enjoying the leftover unhealthy stuff.
Chokolate, candy and other stuff ((:

Cheers, cause i love green drinks!
For the record, it's soda.

Heya

Damn it's been a long day. school felt... long. after school i hanged out at GAME store cause i got stood up by a friend of mine. didn't go home cause i was going to meet someone later and i didn't see the point of going home and then back again that quickly.

i had a talk with some people i knew, i got to know some new and i leared how to shoot with rubber bands. i actually didn't know how. and when i leared, i couldn't stop.

so after two hours just standing there talkking to people and so on, i went downtown to meet up with my friend. for about one and a half hour. then she left.

after that i went home, had food, and met up with my lovely best friend. we went to our friends house and chilled. sorta relaxed. then he started stripteasedancing on omegle and we more or less laughed like we were metally ill.

some taco, drawings, coca cola and a lot of music later, here i am!

home, in my bed, exhausted.

weird thing is that the day itself doesn't seem too... well...
anyhow.

I'll just... relax.... and then... sleep.

Some day I'll sit down somewhere and relax. It'll be under a tree on the top of a small hill, and all around me there will be fields of green grass. The sun will shine a bit through the leaves, but not so much that my eyes will be bothered. the wind will be like silk towards my skin and the temperature will be perfect.
     under that tree, some day that i don't know when, i will find piece of mind. even just for a minute, even for a second, i will feel happy.

and i'll lie there, under the tree and think about everything. i'll think about love, about family, friends, hope, future, past, everything! and maybe i'll even have someone special that i can think of.

some day i will find this. and it will be amazing.

Helluu darlins

I don't think i actually covered my taste in music anywhere, so i'll just do it now. sitting at shcool, not able to consentrate cause STARVING so why not?
*smiley*

Basicaly, I listen to most things as long as they have real instruments in them. guitars, drumms, bass and a decent singer. so... bands, yeah. i do listen to a few "solo" artists too, but the thing is that i don't really listen too much to artists anymore. i just... find a song that i like, and i listen to it.

the basic artist/ band list to this date is, as following

Rise Against - Panic! At The Disco - Linkin Park - Three Days Grace - All Time Low - The All-American Rejects - Disturbed - Arctic Monkeys - Avril Lavigne - Bo Burnham - Breaking Benjamin - The Dangerous Summer - A Day To Remember - Dropkick Murphys - Escape The Fate - Five Finger Death Punch - Green River Ordinance - Lana Del Ray - Kutless - Lostprophets - Mayday Parade - Metallica - Nirvana - The Offspring - Opeth - Plain White T's - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Simple Plan - System of a Down - The Wombats and a lot of other things!!!

some of there i don't listen too much of, but i like them anyhow. I just scrolled down my spotify list and wrote down those i know i enjoy more than 3 songs of.



So that's a bit about me.
Enjoyable.

Oh proud sailor where is your pride? When the anger attacks the once you love ? the once you love deep inside.

This is something a buddy of mine came up with. 
I guess i really know that feeling well. so does he, and probably a lot of other people too.

We've all had our bad days, correct?
And the mood wasn't really on top?
And we might yell something bad or start an argument over nothing?
Hurt our loved ones?

I see especially a friend of mine that has some things to struggle with. Deep within he's in a lot of pain. And on the outside? Well, sometimes he's calm. smiling, like there is nothing wrong. Then the mask of happyness fades, and under you can see a raging fire of pain and sorrow.

It's difficult to help. I've been the one that pushed people away when i needed them the most as well. Not to sound weepy, but i still do. When i feel down, i just... yell at people because it's easier to be angry than sad.
i bet you know that better than anyone.
But then, someone comes through and just... makes it all better. i have this friend that looks through the rage, and then he showes up!

Everyone needs someone like that.
Find one.

Heyaa

So... i can't remember the last time i posted anything, so pardon me if i repeat something...

Anger!
yes, i've been a lot of angry lately! pissed off as damn actually.
i guess im just starting to get so damn fed up by the way people behave.
luckly, i have a couple of good people in my life that i can turn to, and it feels damn nice to have them.

Feelings!
Feelings, always a good thing to mention!
anger is a feeling last time i checked. so is being in love. happy. scared. comfortable. accepting. relaxed. or something like that. i've felt... a lot of different feelings the last week and so. happy about going to the LAN party. angry about people's behavior. Dissapointed, scared and sad because of stuff that happened. then happy because of other things. stressed...
       i also felt... devestated. crushed, smashed down and broken. all in a couple of simple thoughts that sting so deeply. but i have faith those things will be ok some day too. i also felt... excited. shy. happy. relaxed. like i found out where i wanted to be. or like i really enjoyed being somewhere with someone special. someone... very special.
      
Stars
I just love stars. i talked with my friend about them on an hour long car ride cause we couldn't find my damn buss. i just love stars. they're so beautiful. so far away, and yet they make the night so bright.
the nightsky is like... life. it's often dark and heavy to have on your shoulders, but... well, if you look really good... you'll see stars. small, shining points in the other so dark nightsky. life is dark and heavy, but there are stars. those small shining stars that make it all worth it.
and if you're lucky, you might find yourself a couple of wonderful moons. who the hell says there can be only one?
the brighter the star, the brighter impact does it have on your nightsky. find a moon and you've found meaning yo yourself.

This is a happy day!

I just slept over with my best friend Lili. She's the cutest thing ever. Tiny, cute and awesome little creature.

She's playing Batman on pc atm. I'm sitting on the floor.

And it's sunny outside. That's a rare sight.
The weather was ok lat night though! Me and a couple of friends went to the playground at my old school and hanged upside down. Then there was a person staring at us from the top of a hill. I panicked while everyone else was calm. Marulfstyle!

...

I just spent like 5 minutes just lying on the ground staring at the wall. What a nice wall.

Later today I'm going to my grandparents for dinner, then i'm going to hang out with a buddy of mine. Chill time bby!

I love making new friends. I just... love it.

I got a couple recently. One i have known of for a while but never really gotten to know, and another i didn't even know existed. i did know his cousins though. small world.

Come to think of, most of my friends are guys. Don't know why really, but they are. I find guys to be more... well, easy to handle. They don't freak out just because you're friends with the wring person.

I didn't really have much to say... Got bored.

There is this funny thing about a person who can't let go.
A person who's only goal is to harass.
A person who can't take his or her damn mind of you.
I find it quite entertaining.

Thing is, that when a person turns to only being a negative impact on someone's life, they might think they don't care, or that they are above you... false.
They're obsessed.

You're living rent free in their mind.
And they can't stand it.

Now, why do i find this amusing?
Am I a psykopath?
yeah sure, OFC I AM.
Can't you tell?

I am 15 years old and i haven't found the love of my life, OH DAMN.
I think it's amusing to see people fail, HOLY SHIT, nobody else does!
I made a fantasy world in my mind to chill out, cause NOBODY else invented a fantasy world.
I have depression and I go to therapy, WOW. I must be the only one.

sure.

The trashing is annoying me, I'll admit that. I've always gotten annoyed then people are just...so...stupid... Makes me wanna bang my head repetedly in a wall and ask "How the f**k is it possible to be so....?".
And yet.

A person trashtalks and twist the reality to cope with the fact that they lost something they really didn't want to loose. a rather childish way to handle it would be to rage and cry.

I perfer moving on.
Any audience is an audience.

oh, little shades good evening to you all!

Moring to you shades

Have you ever seen someone who couldn't let go of someone? maybe it was your friend, sitting around missing someone, following their every step on facebook? Maybe it was a brother or sister who just sat around studying the wonderful air thinking of the person who dumped his sorry ass?

Letting go takes time. I know that. Someone said to me that it takes 18 months before you're truly over someone. True or not, there is some truth in it.

missing someone or not being over them doesn't not mean that you want them back. But there are times when the usual proceeder falls to pieces because of some idiot immature moron. No offense...

I feel obliged to mention that this immature person i think of is most likely to read this. Not that it bothers me. my blogs are meant to build an audience, and he'd be just another part of it. He's stalking me though.

Back to the subject.... as i always spin around.
Letting go is difficult and it takes time. but it's a part of life to loose stuff.
DON'T PRETEND YOU'RE CRAZY AND START HARASSING YOUR EX.
that little tip will get you FAR.

I'm too hungry to stay focused.....
I'll see you after lunch.

Hello Shades!

I call you shades because I Am Shadow. I even made a logo. Not a good logo, but it's still a logo.

Anyhow...
I've been giving it a lot of thought.... and i think i wanna start taking all of this a bit more seriously. i wanna build an audience. i want to check the site and see that there has been many people reading and commenting, actually caring about what i say.

I got several blogs. MDTgamer is a rather new one. i use that one for things that have something to do with gaming. it takes time but i wanna do it!

I'll build an audience and i'll have something to be proud of.

I simply need to have something to spend my time one.

Finally i'd like to give a so called Shout Out to my website, mdtlore


www.MDTlore.com

That's it for now, i'll see you later!

Hello there!

today i stayed late in bed, and it was nice. then i went out with some friends. it was all nice, we hanged out, went to the movies and that's where i'll go more into detail.

my friend and this other friend all of a sudden started holding hands and such. it was casual, not klinging or making out or anything, she had her legs over his lap and so on. and they just started holding hands. and i dont know if it meant something other than them being interested or so, but it was nice (:

so what i learned from that, is really good so pay attention!

you dont have to be in a relationship to have a special person you can have special moments with. a person you can laugh and joke around with, take a walk and look at the stars with, look in the eyes and feel the heart skip a beat.... all of that sounds alot like love or something, right?

it doesn't have to be that. a special person can simply be a special person. you dont have to kiss and cuddle all the time. it would be just a special one. and it's ok. it's ok to not be serious and committed. it's ok to just have a little thing. it's ok, it's easy and best of it all.... it's just so damn fun. and wonderful.

i often think that the part before you get too comfortable with a person is the best. when you have to put you A-game on to impress and flirt like a... something. it's just.... fun, exciting, nerve wrecking and all. i like the game.

now, finally, you are absolutely allowed to disagree. i know it's often difficult to not try to get something further, but it's really nice to just relax too. so now, i don't really care if you disagree. it's up to you. but it was great for me. so there you go. i learned what i wanna chase right now at this point in my life, and that is simply a bromace. a special friend.

i'll  cya around special ones! ;)

Hey there cute ones.

i recently got reminded of me having a deviantart.com user. i only had one image there, but now i've uploaded several more. and people liked then :3 it made my day ((:

anyways, if you'd like ti check it out...

mdtweb.deviantart.com

and there you go! *smiley*

Hellooo little random ones!

it's sunday and well, i thought maybe 'd take a little look back and view the week.

monday i started at school. not really a great day btw, but that's more the fault of what happened after the school day was over. A stalking ex and ditching friends.

tuesday was terrible. well no, but i did have to go on a terrible class trip. started from out school, we went on a many hour walk up to the mountains far away, kinda. i ruined my body and all, had to cancel and bail before we got back down. so yes, fun.

wednsday... well, since i gave my ex the chance to be friends, and he used it creeping out my friends, i decided i didn't want him in my life anymore at all. i can't have someone in my life that can't behave, so i told him to back off and leave me alone. he refused at first, spammed my phone and my facebook with messages like "talk to me" and "i'm sorry". copy paste ofc, but still, he ended up with... i dont know, 3000-4000 messages all together. creepy, right? he eventually stopped.

thursday my brother moved from our home to Manger. a school that's about... 7-8 hours of driving away. he'll be living at the school, kinda... uhm... can't really remember the word but you get the point. he'll be home in about 5 weeks and then he's gone again. i spendt the day crying, feeling really sad. and then, u had to sleep over at my grandmothers house because my parents and me were still sort of worried about my ex and what he might do. so ya.

friday... i had a sorta friend on a visit... and that's it. not really a special day.

saturday... i'd rather not wanna talk about it. there was a lot of crap from people i thought was good, and all in all it sucked.

so we're back to today and as you can see, it wasn't the perfect week. to be honest, none of my weeks are perfect. but i guess i'll just keep trying to make the best of it.

i'll cya around

Helloooooo

So, once again i sort of wanna spotlight one of my friends. I haven't actually asked her if it's ok, but it i know her, it is.

so i wont go too much into detail about her personal stuff, but i'll thell you this; she's had the biggest impact on my life.... ever. i was this gray, lonely person with no real friends that i really cared that much for (i mean sure, i'd cry if they died but i wouldn't cry if they simply... you know.... cried) and my life was just. so. damn. boring.
       and then she just jumped in and showed my what fun is! i got new friends, i did stuff like... you know... GOING OUTSIDE! we watched movies, we talked for hours, borrowed clothes, helped eachother out.... all those things that most people already would have had for many years before i even got the taste of it. i learned independence and i also learned how to rely on others. it's an amazing experience and i appreciate so much.

hey

so i all of a sudden felt like being creative and productive. i felt like... well, writing songs maybe?
so i sat down, and i've written the kinda... bone structure of three different songs.

no, i haven't written three good songs in this little time, but i have made kind of a rough picture of what's it gonna be like. and about. here's the titles and a short description;

"From Nothing At All"
this is sort of a story based on how my life changed when i got my... first real friend. my first real best friend actually. so many people are going to be insulted or hurt by this by the way. it's not like i had no friends before or anything, but this were very different! it's about how my life was so boring and pale. like nothing at all. and then i met this fun girl who made me do fun stuff and made me see what life could be if we challenged it a bit.
      so it's about how someone's boring life turned into something amazing.




"It Is Time For New Adventures"
this is about the feeling you get when a bad relationship ends. when you're finally rid of the guy or girl that at the end, did nothing but bother you. sometimes it takes time to build up the nerve to break up, or to get over one. and when you do, this feeling will explode inside of you. you want to do all the stuff you couldn't do, and it just feel SO GOOD!

"Friendzoned"
this is something i think most people have experienced, am i mistaken? you meet this person, and he or she is just... SO AMAZING. you can't believe your freaking eyes and ears. and you get to know them, and you feel like this person could be so much more than just a good friend. and then, well, you find you the person sees you like... i don't know, a brother or sister? cousin? cat? something that would never be anymore. you realize this amazing person will never see you as anything even close to romantic. EVER. welcome to the friendzone honey.

i was trying to make one called "The Perfect Love Story" too, but that one was more difficult. i really suck at writing songs about simple, happy stuff. it's boring too, so why would i anyways?

hopw you enjoyed, and just to make it less.... boring i'll put up a couple of fairly random images that i do own myself!

SO, listen, after my last breakup and my decision to not have any close friends anymore, i have realized something...
     now i have a LOT of time to do something else... so i need a hobby. i already got puzzling, drawing, gaming and so on. but i think maybe.... i'll work more on my blog and stuff. i got four. and it's got pretty much nothing interessting in it. i dont even know where my few viewers come from.

but i though, what if i write somewhat short posts and add photos often, and then once in a while i'll post a video blogg. like, vlogg.

it'll be like.... a substitute for my lack of close personal friends. i'll complain when i'm angry, weep when i'm sad and be happy when i'm happy!

worth a try, isn't it?

So, i had me third breakup a while ago. but it wasn't really a true breakup. i realize now that it takes.

I was with this guy for about 4 months. and by those 4 months end i couldn't stand him anymore. and when i broke up with him, i said it was alright if we stayed in touch. BIG MISTAKE.

here's the thing... when you go through a breakup, no matter how hard, it's important to give eachother space to mend. and it's also important to not fuck up everything, leaving a nice breakup to a huge mess with lots of cracks and losses.

Just take my advice. when it's over, it's over. GET IT?
if both parts keep pushing each other it wont even be a breakup, it'll just be like being in a MUCH WORSE relationship.

Leave it. when it's broken beyond repair, why the hell would you keep playing with it? you'd only hurt yourself and the other more.

anyways, a little comfort at the end if you're going through a breakup yourself.
          it'll be fine. i promise. and dont take my word for it. live on in your misery to prove me wrong and you'll see. it'll be fine. hang out with friends, eat unhealthy food and have your weepynights. you deserve a night to weep like a 3 year old.

Hey

So... today i'm making a pretty big decision, and for some reason i feel like sharing it with you.
Today is the day i decide... no more close friends. ever.
All they'll ever do is let you down when you need them the most. I'm not saying i wont have friends... but I'll never look at anyone again and see them as more than just a good friend. That is where the line goes.
heads up? when your really need someone... count yourself LUCKY if you do.

just a little reminder.

heyyyy

so, the game is starting to gain some things, like stuff and so on.
ok, better said, the programmer guy is starting to get some stuff fixed, we're still working on the graphics and designs, an the mainstory is taking shape.

non the less, there is now a possibility to registrer for the upcomming beta. basically, that means we're gonna send you a mail when the beta is redy so you can be one of the first to test it. please, show some support and sign up!

link is to the right in this blogg, or here

http://www.mdtlore.com/

Hey there! just randomly thought that i'd show you... well, who i am. please dont show up outside my door to rape me. so this is me....



because somehow i thought i'd be a good idea to put an image of me here. so yea. aren't i cute? and if anyone wonders, yeah i have drawn all the images in the background by my self and i know they aren't good.

i dont think i've introduced me really. so here it goes:

i am 15 years old.
i come from norway.
i draw and write alot.
i am a gamer, i even have my own blog for that.
i like food. it's good. and i'm hungry.

i dont know, there isn't really that much to say. i'm not that interessting. or maybe i am. why dont you just get to know me and judge by yourself?

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bottom line is this is me, and, well.... that's me.

you know, everyone is suppose to have some sort of future. time is time, there will be something called future anyways. none can say that you dont have a future. i know the figure of speach, but still. it's a stupid thing to say.

how do you think your future is gonna be like? will you get married, settle down and get a lot of kids and maybe a dog? are you gonna live in a apartment somewhere in a big city with an artistic beloved and a cat? are you gonne grow old and die alone?

there, questions, now let your little gray cells work on that while i go to bed.

last, maybe you'd wanna find out what future you'd like?
remember, "i want my future to be spontanious to me present person" is a perfectly valid answer.
if you dont wanna plan your future, then you're wanted future is "whatever comes".

i ramble after 2 am.

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future is a thing that's gonna happen. define your happiness and chase it to the bitter end.

Night fellah's

heyyyy

So i have this friend.... and that's it. kidding ofc. bazinga.
i have known him for...almost 2 months now. fairly short, but it doesn't feel like it. it kinda feels like i've known him for... well, alot more.

we talk alot on skype, mostly me rambeling about nothing and everything, and he just listens and laughs. i like it actually. i like talking and i like good listeners. besides, he's nice and kind and so on. and musical! that's aweseome you know. ofc you know. everybody knows that musical people are SO HOT. moahahhaha.

oh, just to mention, he's gonna read this tomorrow probably. not that it has anything to do with anything OFC!

no but seriously though, he is a goodie friend. hopefully he can become one of the really good friends you never really forget no matter where you end up, but sadly, chances are really low. he's moving away to the far away north place, aka he's moving really far away and i can't hang out with him.

i have no problems with friends far away, but for me to be really good friends with someone i kinda have that irritating need for... you know, actually seing them once in a while.

so all of this is really random, right? it's just about this friend that i wanna get good friends with, but he's moving away and that's sad. maybe i'd wanna see if anyone else had that problem? not that anyone reads this thingy after all. i should probably get some readers. or not. actually, i'm fine with "not".

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bottom line is that i have a cool friend and i wanted to share it with you. tadaa.

hello there!
thought i could just mention that the prodject me and my bf have been working on seems closer now that we bouht a domain.

http://www.mdtlore.com/

feel free to check it out. at this point there isn't actually anything there other than a message saying the page is under construction, but keep checking in on both my blog and the website. hopefully there will be something for you throughout the summer.

at least a duable beta is the goal for the moment.

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just a little list of some stuff i fint easy and simple, yet romantc enough to make it work.

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• Give a full-body massage
• Pick wildflowers on the way home
• Burn a CD with love songs
• Prepare strawberries with fondue chocolate
• Leave little love notes everywhere
• Bring home great take-out, and light some candles
• Write a love letter
• Create a little box with a bunch of your partner’s favorite things inside
• Give a little token to your partner to wear, and say it’s to remind him or her all day that you love them
• Have dinner on the roof, with some candles. This doesn’t work if your roof slopes sharply
• Hold hands, and walk somewhere with lots of pretty lights
• Say I love you. In a different way, every day
• Declare your love, very publicly'
• Take a trip to nowhere. No packing, no planning, no idea. 
• Take two pads of lined paper, some nice pens and go somewhere nice and quiet. sit down and write the stories of your lives. After one hour, read them aloud to one-another. Then ask lots of questions.
• Make a trip to the grocery store and pick up some creative pizza ingredients. Take your groceries home and assemble your masterpiece pizza together. Choose a CD of music, light candles and enjoy.
• Pick up your Sunday newspaper and look up the local parade of new homes. Get in the car and visit three of the most expensive homes making believe that you’re really rich. Be careful that you don’t sign anything!
• Get an adrenaline rush at the roller-skating rink. As long as you don't mind being the oldest people there who aren't chaperoning their children, it's a great way to have fun and let loose with each other. Top it off with a bowl of ice cream when you get home.
• Challenge your guy to a little friendly competition and surprise him by taking him to a rifle range. After each round, compare your targets — loser buys the next round of bullets; winner gets gloating privileges.
• find a festival not too far away and enjoy the mood and whatever there is there.
• Challenge each other to a contest. Anything works, and the sillier the better! Try sand castle building, hop scotch, name that tune, marbles, or kite flying.
• Pay your local library a visit, and ask the librarian where you can read aloud. Choose an engaging mystery or steamy romance and spend the afternoon reading aloud to one-another.
  more things will come uo later.
  
  

this blogg will be used mostly as a online sourse for my own material. i am trying out some HMTL codes.

other than that, i might use it when i am bored out of my scull.

see ya aroud!
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