TheKaless

Hellooo little random ones!

it's sunday and well, i thought maybe 'd take a little look back and view the week.

monday i started at school. not really a great day btw, but that's more the fault of what happened after the school day was over. A stalking ex and ditching friends.

tuesday was terrible. well no, but i did have to go on a terrible class trip. started from out school, we went on a many hour walk up to the mountains far away, kinda. i ruined my body and all, had to cancel and bail before we got back down. so yes, fun.

wednsday... well, since i gave my ex the chance to be friends, and he used it creeping out my friends, i decided i didn't want him in my life anymore at all. i can't have someone in my life that can't behave, so i told him to back off and leave me alone. he refused at first, spammed my phone and my facebook with messages like "talk to me" and "i'm sorry". copy paste ofc, but still, he ended up with... i dont know, 3000-4000 messages all together. creepy, right? he eventually stopped.

thursday my brother moved from our home to Manger. a school that's about... 7-8 hours of driving away. he'll be living at the school, kinda... uhm... can't really remember the word but you get the point. he'll be home in about 5 weeks and then he's gone again. i spendt the day crying, feeling really sad. and then, u had to sleep over at my grandmothers house because my parents and me were still sort of worried about my ex and what he might do. so ya.

friday... i had a sorta friend on a visit... and that's it. not really a special day.

saturday... i'd rather not wanna talk about it. there was a lot of crap from people i thought was good, and all in all it sucked.

so we're back to today and as you can see, it wasn't the perfect week. to be honest, none of my weeks are perfect. but i guess i'll just keep trying to make the best of it.

i'll cya around

Helloooooo

So, once again i sort of wanna spotlight one of my friends. I haven't actually asked her if it's ok, but it i know her, it is.

so i wont go too much into detail about her personal stuff, but i'll thell you this; she's had the biggest impact on my life.... ever. i was this gray, lonely person with no real friends that i really cared that much for (i mean sure, i'd cry if they died but i wouldn't cry if they simply... you know.... cried) and my life was just. so. damn. boring.
       and then she just jumped in and showed my what fun is! i got new friends, i did stuff like... you know... GOING OUTSIDE! we watched movies, we talked for hours, borrowed clothes, helped eachother out.... all those things that most people already would have had for many years before i even got the taste of it. i learned independence and i also learned how to rely on others. it's an amazing experience and i appreciate so much.

hey

so i all of a sudden felt like being creative and productive. i felt like... well, writing songs maybe?
so i sat down, and i've written the kinda... bone structure of three different songs.

no, i haven't written three good songs in this little time, but i have made kind of a rough picture of what's it gonna be like. and about. here's the titles and a short description;

"From Nothing At All"
this is sort of a story based on how my life changed when i got my... first real friend. my first real best friend actually. so many people are going to be insulted or hurt by this by the way. it's not like i had no friends before or anything, but this were very different! it's about how my life was so boring and pale. like nothing at all. and then i met this fun girl who made me do fun stuff and made me see what life could be if we challenged it a bit.
      so it's about how someone's boring life turned into something amazing.




"It Is Time For New Adventures"
this is about the feeling you get when a bad relationship ends. when you're finally rid of the guy or girl that at the end, did nothing but bother you. sometimes it takes time to build up the nerve to break up, or to get over one. and when you do, this feeling will explode inside of you. you want to do all the stuff you couldn't do, and it just feel SO GOOD!

"Friendzoned"
this is something i think most people have experienced, am i mistaken? you meet this person, and he or she is just... SO AMAZING. you can't believe your freaking eyes and ears. and you get to know them, and you feel like this person could be so much more than just a good friend. and then, well, you find you the person sees you like... i don't know, a brother or sister? cousin? cat? something that would never be anymore. you realize this amazing person will never see you as anything even close to romantic. EVER. welcome to the friendzone honey.

i was trying to make one called "The Perfect Love Story" too, but that one was more difficult. i really suck at writing songs about simple, happy stuff. it's boring too, so why would i anyways?

hopw you enjoyed, and just to make it less.... boring i'll put up a couple of fairly random images that i do own myself!

SO, listen, after my last breakup and my decision to not have any close friends anymore, i have realized something...
     now i have a LOT of time to do something else... so i need a hobby. i already got puzzling, drawing, gaming and so on. but i think maybe.... i'll work more on my blog and stuff. i got four. and it's got pretty much nothing interessting in it. i dont even know where my few viewers come from.

but i though, what if i write somewhat short posts and add photos often, and then once in a while i'll post a video blogg. like, vlogg.

it'll be like.... a substitute for my lack of close personal friends. i'll complain when i'm angry, weep when i'm sad and be happy when i'm happy!

worth a try, isn't it?

So, i had me third breakup a while ago. but it wasn't really a true breakup. i realize now that it takes.

I was with this guy for about 4 months. and by those 4 months end i couldn't stand him anymore. and when i broke up with him, i said it was alright if we stayed in touch. BIG MISTAKE.

here's the thing... when you go through a breakup, no matter how hard, it's important to give eachother space to mend. and it's also important to not fuck up everything, leaving a nice breakup to a huge mess with lots of cracks and losses.

Just take my advice. when it's over, it's over. GET IT?
if both parts keep pushing each other it wont even be a breakup, it'll just be like being in a MUCH WORSE relationship.

Leave it. when it's broken beyond repair, why the hell would you keep playing with it? you'd only hurt yourself and the other more.

anyways, a little comfort at the end if you're going through a breakup yourself.
          it'll be fine. i promise. and dont take my word for it. live on in your misery to prove me wrong and you'll see. it'll be fine. hang out with friends, eat unhealthy food and have your weepynights. you deserve a night to weep like a 3 year old.

Hey

So... today i'm making a pretty big decision, and for some reason i feel like sharing it with you.
Today is the day i decide... no more close friends. ever.
All they'll ever do is let you down when you need them the most. I'm not saying i wont have friends... but I'll never look at anyone again and see them as more than just a good friend. That is where the line goes.
heads up? when your really need someone... count yourself LUCKY if you do.

just a little reminder.