TheKaless

Heya

Damn it's been a long day. school felt... long. after school i hanged out at GAME store cause i got stood up by a friend of mine. didn't go home cause i was going to meet someone later and i didn't see the point of going home and then back again that quickly.

i had a talk with some people i knew, i got to know some new and i leared how to shoot with rubber bands. i actually didn't know how. and when i leared, i couldn't stop.

so after two hours just standing there talkking to people and so on, i went downtown to meet up with my friend. for about one and a half hour. then she left.

after that i went home, had food, and met up with my lovely best friend. we went to our friends house and chilled. sorta relaxed. then he started stripteasedancing on omegle and we more or less laughed like we were metally ill.

some taco, drawings, coca cola and a lot of music later, here i am!

home, in my bed, exhausted.

weird thing is that the day itself doesn't seem too... well...
anyhow.

I'll just... relax.... and then... sleep.

Some day I'll sit down somewhere and relax. It'll be under a tree on the top of a small hill, and all around me there will be fields of green grass. The sun will shine a bit through the leaves, but not so much that my eyes will be bothered. the wind will be like silk towards my skin and the temperature will be perfect.
     under that tree, some day that i don't know when, i will find piece of mind. even just for a minute, even for a second, i will feel happy.

and i'll lie there, under the tree and think about everything. i'll think about love, about family, friends, hope, future, past, everything! and maybe i'll even have someone special that i can think of.

some day i will find this. and it will be amazing.

Helluu darlins

I don't think i actually covered my taste in music anywhere, so i'll just do it now. sitting at shcool, not able to consentrate cause STARVING so why not?
*smiley*

Basicaly, I listen to most things as long as they have real instruments in them. guitars, drumms, bass and a decent singer. so... bands, yeah. i do listen to a few "solo" artists too, but the thing is that i don't really listen too much to artists anymore. i just... find a song that i like, and i listen to it.

the basic artist/ band list to this date is, as following

Rise Against - Panic! At The Disco - Linkin Park - Three Days Grace - All Time Low - The All-American Rejects - Disturbed - Arctic Monkeys - Avril Lavigne - Bo Burnham - Breaking Benjamin - The Dangerous Summer - A Day To Remember - Dropkick Murphys - Escape The Fate - Five Finger Death Punch - Green River Ordinance - Lana Del Ray - Kutless - Lostprophets - Mayday Parade - Metallica - Nirvana - The Offspring - Opeth - Plain White T's - Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Simple Plan - System of a Down - The Wombats and a lot of other things!!!

some of there i don't listen too much of, but i like them anyhow. I just scrolled down my spotify list and wrote down those i know i enjoy more than 3 songs of.



So that's a bit about me.
Enjoyable.

Oh proud sailor where is your pride? When the anger attacks the once you love ? the once you love deep inside.

This is something a buddy of mine came up with. 
I guess i really know that feeling well. so does he, and probably a lot of other people too.

We've all had our bad days, correct?
And the mood wasn't really on top?
And we might yell something bad or start an argument over nothing?
Hurt our loved ones?

I see especially a friend of mine that has some things to struggle with. Deep within he's in a lot of pain. And on the outside? Well, sometimes he's calm. smiling, like there is nothing wrong. Then the mask of happyness fades, and under you can see a raging fire of pain and sorrow.

It's difficult to help. I've been the one that pushed people away when i needed them the most as well. Not to sound weepy, but i still do. When i feel down, i just... yell at people because it's easier to be angry than sad.
i bet you know that better than anyone.
But then, someone comes through and just... makes it all better. i have this friend that looks through the rage, and then he showes up!

Everyone needs someone like that.
Find one.

Heyaa

So... i can't remember the last time i posted anything, so pardon me if i repeat something...

Anger!
yes, i've been a lot of angry lately! pissed off as damn actually.
i guess im just starting to get so damn fed up by the way people behave.
luckly, i have a couple of good people in my life that i can turn to, and it feels damn nice to have them.

Feelings!
Feelings, always a good thing to mention!
anger is a feeling last time i checked. so is being in love. happy. scared. comfortable. accepting. relaxed. or something like that. i've felt... a lot of different feelings the last week and so. happy about going to the LAN party. angry about people's behavior. Dissapointed, scared and sad because of stuff that happened. then happy because of other things. stressed...
       i also felt... devestated. crushed, smashed down and broken. all in a couple of simple thoughts that sting so deeply. but i have faith those things will be ok some day too. i also felt... excited. shy. happy. relaxed. like i found out where i wanted to be. or like i really enjoyed being somewhere with someone special. someone... very special.
      
Stars
I just love stars. i talked with my friend about them on an hour long car ride cause we couldn't find my damn buss. i just love stars. they're so beautiful. so far away, and yet they make the night so bright.
the nightsky is like... life. it's often dark and heavy to have on your shoulders, but... well, if you look really good... you'll see stars. small, shining points in the other so dark nightsky. life is dark and heavy, but there are stars. those small shining stars that make it all worth it.
and if you're lucky, you might find yourself a couple of wonderful moons. who the hell says there can be only one?
the brighter the star, the brighter impact does it have on your nightsky. find a moon and you've found meaning yo yourself.