I don't think I mentioned it, but in the fall semester, I will be moving about 7-8hours (by car) away from my hometown. I am attending the Danvik FHS, the writing author line thingy.

At first, I was really happy to get away from here. This city has brought so much bad to my life, especially lately. But then again, there are some things I'm REALLY going to struggle without. First, I know this place. I know of most the people, I know where what kind of people hang out, I know where things are (usually) and I know how things work.

Secondly, I'm going to have a hard time without my family. In so many ways, getting away and getting a chance to stand on my own two feet, it'll be amazing I guess. But having people constantly around me, then all of a sudden... well there will be people around I guess, but it wont be the same.

I'll miss my cats. I know it sort of sounds like I'm kidding or something, but I'm honestly not. I am almot addicted to my cats, in a very unhealthy way. Well, some unhealthy ways, like, I can't stand missing them and just going to school makes me wanna cry a little. At the same time, I am this connected because of what my cats have ment to me. But I guess I'm also a little crazy, so simply calling me a crazy cat lady will do it.

I'm not actually insane tho. Just... whatever.

I'm going to miss those few people that I know wont hurt me. Like, my good friend Stian that was visiting me today. We're sort of in a two man band, and we're having so much fun doing what we do as soon as we get to it. We're making a song that's about... the feelings that occour after a lousy relationship. Sort of a contrast, pretty dream cross angry tell of reality.
      He's making me sing, whitch is really uncomfortable, but at the same time, SO FUN.
I'll miss him a lot. I will miss my girlfriends, Lili and Ragnhild. I will miss my friends at GAME, Kristoffer, Thomas, Marita, Pippo, all of them. Even those I don't really meet that often.

I will miss a few of my classmates, Mona, William, Pijus, and schoolmates, like Fredrik, Aleksander, Malin, Maren, Morten... even those I don't know that well, like Hans Olav aka Solo, Runar and Sebastian (Sebb).

I know I'm mentioning a lot of names that means little, or nothing, to you. And I'm probably forgetting a lot of people. By forgetting, I mean, I don't know if I should mention them or not, cause there is a lot of people I should mention and a lot that I did mention but shouldn't have. Made sence? no? good.

The chanses of any of them reading this is low. I mean, dead low. The people reading this thing are mostly my shrink (Heia Ane *smilefjes), maybe my "special" friend, and some randoms who's just looking through blogs in search for a good one.

Now, this got long and tiresome, so I'll stop now. I just had to... let some of it out. I'm feeling sick about all of this, and I've gotten some pretty... uncomfortable reminders from my old life. People that wouldn't mind me going away forever. Events that I'll never feel good about.

From now on, I will be more real and honest at this blog. Simply because no one is really reading, except from previous mentions. But I wont be all "they spread lies about me buhu". I hate that. I will tell you, "they blame me for things I didn't do and it sucks". THE END.

Oh yeah, about that "I'll stop now"