I have sucked so badly at school lately. It sucks.
I have always been sort of the smart kid in my family. I was always the smart kid, doing it shining in school, getting top grades and knowing everything.

Then my life turned around and I got fucked badly. Then I stopped doing anything at all... and now? now, time is running out. I'm not even sure if I should care or not, it's just like... next school year is already safed. It is the year that follows that decides if I am to worry or not about passing or faling this year. It's actually sort of fun to look at my reportcard from christmas.

I have 3,5 average out of 6 possible. that is above midways. it is actually not bad, especially considering I did pretty much NOTHING at all. It shows that I'm clever, but an underachiver. I score damn high on tests and don't really turn in any task we're given. My grades are either 5 or 1. Some story.

Anyhow, I do want to get it together for the last two weeks and maybe save my sorry ass. I don't actually mind that much failing, because I am either way considering to pick up freshman year. However, I'd then be 2 years older than my classmates, and not able to join the russ celebration in may with my friends. If I continue the secound year after this one, I'd get to celebrate with my best friend. tempting.

So I'm thinking... maybe I'll give it a shot. The final weeks. I've been pretty good at the monthly challenge, writing 1000 words a day, so far. It's like... my goal is 30,000 words by the end of the month, so if I write 500 words more than I need to one day, the preashure is lower the next. I'm still trying to reach 1000 words, but I don't HAVE to as long as I reach the amount of words ment of the day.

Oh, and I think I'll start putting more images and random stuff here. Recomending things like excelent websites. It'll be like a vlog... just... blog. God damn, if I hear anyone say that vlog came before blog then I'll start murdering people.
      Anyhow, my point is! I feel like I can do a bunch of great things if I put my mind to it, and maybe write down a list. So that's what I'll do I guess.