Now, as you might know, I failed at my 30-day challenge. I didng't get further than ... 17,000 words, that is about 28-30 pages (too lazy to check). And it sucks really, but I guess you gotta fail some to learn how to push harder.

I just found a random quote thingy, and it more or less describes me and my situation to the fullest.







And that pretty much explains it, I guess.
I have ... talent, in most things I do. I usually blame the asian genes, but honestly it's just something I was born with I guess. But I forgot how to work hard in the long run. And that sucks a lot, cause I used to be-

ALRIGHT I had to stop myself there.
I am pretty sick of my mind constantly lookping back to "what I used to be". One thing is when I find old pictures and I'm like "awwwwwww", but I am getting pretty sick of thinking about how I lost my passion, my motivation and my interest, basically.

As you might have seen, I do TRY to work hard at least. But at the same time, I really don't. I am unsteady, and I hate that. I get theese energy kicks that last for about 2 days, and then I just fall back to old habits and I do nothing for a week. Then, I repeat.
For a while now, I had to limit the things that made me... well, me! Because people in my life, both family and other, was complaining about me being too busy with my own stuff. I didn't have a real conversation with my parents for maybe a week cause I was too busy writing, drawing, watching series, playing music and other stuff in my room.

I'm not going to go on and on and on about this, really. I just ...
I want to get somewhere, and I'll probably not stop talking about it before I am actually there. The youtube thing, that is pretty cool. I actually did something about it, and I have planned the entire summer to pursue that, just to see if I'd enjoy doing it. And I got somewhere with it too. I got ... finished. I finished it, I uploaded it, and nobody's watched it ... and you know what?
That is the best thing that could ever have been!

When I first started this blog, nobody read it at all. Maybe I had like 6 viewers per day, if I was lucky. Now, I'm closing in on 250 per day, and that increase begaun THIS MONTH. And since there were nobody here from the beginning, I could write about anything I wanted. And I grew with writing, I got better and now that there are more people, that's pretty awesome as well. I think youtube will be the same thing.

This got a bit too long, and I apologize. What if I reward you with something extremely rare;
A picture of me without straightened hair!

All fluffy and slightly weavyyyy...