I have probably mentioned it before, but I am damn scared of moving and attending Danvik FHS this fall. Just thinking about it creates a massive storm of emotions, mostly fear.

There is this little patch of forest that I used to be extremely scared of. It was a shortcut that I hated to take, especially in the dark.
But then something happened, and it made me furious and sort of devistated. And through those feelings, I face my fear of forests in the dark. I sat in that little patch of forest, in the snow in the dark for hours.

Through sadness I faced the fear.

This fall I'll do that again. I am scared, so damn scared, of being alone. Starting out, fresh new start, somewhere far from home without knowing anyone or anything. But my hometown brings me little but grief now days. The few things I still have is slipping through my fingers, and everywhere I see what I lost.

Maybe I am better off alone. Maybe I am that sort of person who's always the most comfortable in her own company. Once a lonely wolf, always a...

What a bunch of bullshit.
The future is whatever it is, and I'll know what is it when it is.
But I mean what I said.
I face fear through emotions, and that is... I don't know. Maybe it's unhealthy, thus making me unable to face things as long as I'm happy. But problems are solved when... whenever they are solved.

Feeding time, later!