What's going on with my life right now? Honestly....

I'm working on lots of prodjects, like the videos, the blog and my room.
I'm trying to hang out with my friends as much as possible, since I won't see them in the fall.
I'm cuddeling extra loads with Oliver, in fear of him dying while I'm gone.
I'm pretending I'm actually getting somewhere with all of it.
I'm being scared like hell.

I just can't stand this.
I have so many mixed thoughts and feelings....
Everything I do feels unreal.
Like I'm just fooling myself.

WHY the hell did I just go so dark?
I was so psyked just some hours ago.
Some days ago I was still convinced that I could actully achieve something great!
And now...

Anyways, let's take a step away from the dars sad things, and go more.... something!
I came home about 2 hours ago after being at a footballmatch supporting my good friend. They lost 2-5, and their keeper even got a red card. Mwaheeeee.
Before that I just spendt a couple of days relaxing at my friend's place, and I really needed it. I also got a new record at the blog, with 226 viewers!
And I've joined a couple of facebook groups that has something to do with my new school, and I've cried a bit about it cause I'm so scared.
I have also started playing world of warcraft on a private server that grants 20x the experience, so hitting lvl 30 on two characters was easy as damn, and took me 2 days. Easy!

I'm going to TRY edit now, and then I'll film a quick drawing video! I AM DOING THIS.
AFTER THAT I WILL PLAY WOW AS IF I DIDN'T HAVE A LIFEEEE!!