I just saw a video made my some previous students at my new school.
I really don't know why, but at the end of it, I nearly cried.
And I'm completely honest when I say... what?
I'm not happy, nor sad, in a way that would make me cry.

As you probably know, I am TERREFIED about it. I guess my biggest fear is that I won't find anyone. That I'll be all alone, just like I've always been at school. It's hard for me to really connect with people like that. And I've been very unlucky when it comes to classmates and such.
Sure, I have friends, but they're usually in another class, another school or something like that.

I know I shouldn't think like this, but I can't help but think "what if it doesn't work out?".
I am working on that kinda sorta social anxiety thing I got going on. Trying to no cry when I'm alone in a social situation. And I got a long way to go on that, but I'll do my best.

Also, I just found out that they have at least two pianos at my school, so that's something!
And I also decided that I'll be at my best. The absolute best.
Whitch sound like a good thing, but it more or less just adds more preashure and work for me.
Cause that's the way I role! Keep puching till ya die, and even a bit after that!
Hahaha, I'm so going to die from a heart attack or something.

Oh! I have been thinking about dying my hair again!
And getting extensions.
Thing is, I know how long I want my hair, and it's not gonna be that long for yet a long time. But since I dye my hair a lot, I really don't know what color of extensions I should get. I guess the smartest thing would be to have like ... a really light color actually. Then I could just dye it whatever way I want, cause you can't bleach extensions.

What color should I have my hair?
I mean I love the red, but it's getting a bit boring. And also, I'd love to have real blue/purple, but it takes A LOT of work to maintain a good blue. When I have red it goes a bit orange/brown, but I can live with that.

Any suggestions?