I've sucked recently.

Not too long ago, I had about 20-30 viewers every day....
then I took my time, I really put an effort to it, and I reached over 200 each day (at some point I randomly hit like 600).
I am back at 20.

Ok listen up, I'm not gonna say this a lot.
THIS IS A HOLIDAY.
I'm sorry to say so, but blogging is NOT at the top of my list. So far I've been doing my best to ignore the things that are troublematic to me. I've been looking past all the wrong decisions I've made, and just went for whatever felt like the most fun. "this is wrong, but hell with it!"
So far it's been one of the best summers I've ever had.
And the funnies thing is that it's not really that different from my other summers. The amount of drama and problems are more or less the same, but I don't pay attention to it.

At some point, all of this is probably going to blow up in my face and kick me in the ass, but I'll deal with that then.
I must tell you a few things that I can't truly look past though.
Like Bruno, my grandparents dog that is burried in my garden. I loved him so much, and the way he was always so happy to see me.... I'll never forget someone like that, and my heart is more or less still broken my it.
Also, and this is a bit secret-ish, I don't really know how my parents will be doing when me and my brother moves out. They'll be alone at the age of 49 and 48. I think that's a bit early kinda ... at least since I'm still 16. And I'm kinda worried that they'll not do that well with eachother. Being on a vacation trip with them was exhausting!
They didn't really get along that well during that trip, and it bugged me. So I guess I'm a bit afraid that they'll not stick together when there are no more kids to think about. I don't know ....

Also, I've been getting ill again. And that sucks a lot, cause I hate having to take breaks cause I didn't in the first place. Sleep! Food! Drink!
Goddamnit ..... Oh well, I'll be in bed before 3 AM tonight though, and I went to bed around 2 AM yeasterday, so I'm improving!

Finally, I'll say that I feel like I'm kinda starting from scratch. I'm rebuilding my entire website in a whole new program that is online and it's called weebly. I'm not sure if I'll go with that yet, but I'm definely switching out iWeb. It was great to begin with, but I need something that'll suit me better. Weebly is just a tryout though so yeah. Also, since my blog's gone down again, I guess I'm starting sorta fresh here as well.

I promise you all that I'll get back on track when the summer is over. Uintil then, I'll continue having fun, see past the trouble, and hopefully make some great memories!