And now my hand is swollen again.
Honestly, I can't deal with this for much longer, I'm going insane!
I shouldn't feel this good when pain floates through my hand, up my arm and into my body. It shouldn't be that way.
Yes, I hit the wall again. I'm probably never going to stop doing that, ever, for the rest of my life. I realize that now, and I guess that's just the way it's gonna be. Always.

And now I regret it.
My hand hadn't healed yet from the last time this happened.
Damn that's swollen and blue....

I'm starting to think I have anger issues....
Damn this hurts ... and even better, the rubbery sound is back!

Swollen too, yeh...

So what's the lesson here guys?
Actually, there are several.

1. Don't let me go hungry - Yep. All this was triggered by a simple food situation. Which only goes to show, I'm not to be messed around with when hungry.

2. Don't piss me off when I'm hungry - Slamming doors and incredible pain after punching sement walls.... not so great.

3. Don't punch walls - Especially not those that are made of sement, or anything ... really.

4. Don't punch walls two times in two weeks - Do you really need an explenaion?

5. I am (obviously) not a very clever person when it comes to managing anger.

So those were the lessons of the day! Hope you enjoyed my little outrage, and I'll be paying the price for ... well I don't know how long this is going to last. Last time the swelling lasted for a couple of days, so yeh.