I have the choice between getting better or working harder. And I know it sounds stupid that it has to be one of the extremes, but that's the only way that works for me. It's all in or no way. 

Still not sure how to approach this though.m

Gicing it my all means pulling all nighters and give up on a bunch of stuff like social stuff and watching series. The only things I'd still be doing is reading manga and books, both as inspration and research for ways to improve my own work. 

I have honestly gotten a lot of motivation through reading Bakuman, and it has made me feel like I can do everything if I just work hard enough. I need to have something to show for my work soon, or I'll completely loose it. I'm so sick of my mom constantly giving ne crap about spending too much time indoors and not doing anything useful. Pisses me off.

 

So I'll tidy my room, for real this time, and I'll work harder and harder to improve my style, my quality and my productions. 

Not sure if I want to overdo it, biut I kinda like to do that too. I get so proud of myself when I spend all night drawing and working on characters, because it feels like I'm doing a good job! I feel motivated and I feel good. 

Uintil I get sick, that is. 

This is going a bit back and forth in my mind, so I'll just focus on getting a good working enviroment that is easy to use and without so much mess all over the place. That'll be the first step. Well that, and stop reading manga so that I can get other stuff done. I can draw and watch a series at the same time, but I can't draw and read at the same time. 

Anyways, I'll do some more posts later guys!