I feel it's been a while since the last time I talked about serious stuff, like how to deal with life or how it feels when things you love come crashing down around you, burning with the pain and regret you've felt for far too long.

Truth is, I've been pretty happy lately, thus making it difficult to talk about serious, sad stuff.
But I can still remember how things feel, so let me just .... tell you what I deal with, and then how I turn my back on it and smile.

Let's see, what have I not covered before?
I have trust issues, due to several things that has happened in my life.
I have huge problems with the way I see myself. Not like I think I'm ugly, stupid and ugly, but in ways like hoe I'm affecting the world around me, and people that have to deal with me on a regular basis.
And then there is my slight problem with overthinking stuff, and feeling bad for stuff that I have no influence on.

Now, on the the most important part;
How to deal with it.
STOP CARING.
It's difficult as fuck, and it'll take A LONG time to get used to, but seriously....
I decided for myself that this summer was going to be amazing. And I decided that I'd do anything to make it so.
I have crossed MANY lines.
Broken, no, DEVISTATED an extreme amount of my personal "rules" and such.
AND
I've said "fuck it, I'm having fun"

The end result?
Well, it's reflecting a lot on my blog isn't it? I'm having such a wonderful time that I haven't had time on the computer every day. THAT'S SOMETHING.
This didn't actually get that long and whiny, but maybe that's a good thing.
I'll still get real with you guys every now and then, but not right now. I'm too busy living a life that I'm actually finding .... well, worth it!

Talk to ya later guys!

BTW, I have violet hair now! Kinda .... It's mixed with all the brown weird something IDK...... ((: