It's impossible to go through life without hurting people. It's impossible to search for your happiness without hurting someone else as well. Then there is something that I for one, has a real hard time to deal with.
I shall not care.

It's always been tough for me to simply not care about anything. To simply say "fuck it" and move on. Even as I know there is nothing I can do about it, I have a real hard time letting it go.

The thing is, as I finally start my journy towars what would make me smile.
As I start prioritizing my own happiness and joy, above pleasing others.
As I try to live in the pure moment of joy as it's passing by, not even considering the outcome...

I love it.
I've done that this summer. Or at least big parts of the summer.
And what a summer it has been.
It's been the best in a long, long time, DESPITE all the crap that crashed down around me.
A DOG I REALLY, REALLY CARE ABOUT DIED FOR FUCKS DAMN SAKE.
It broke my heart completely, and I still cry when I see his grave.
And yet...
YET, this has been a fantastic summer.
I lost someone dare to me. Someone special that I can't reach anymore cause of a choice I made. And it's shredding my sould apart. My concience is screaming in damnations hell.

BUT I made a chouce to go for whatever made me happy.
I am dedicated to that choice because it, through all the pain it causes, is making me a happier person. So there is nothing I can do about it.
And so I should look past it, right?

Listen guys ... this is gonna get really important...
Hurting people sucks HARD. Knowing your happiness has caused other people pain is tough as damn. But you can't avoid it. It's GONNA happen, no doubt.
NEVER apologize for being happy.