Alright, time for some dirty secrets...
One of my biggest guilty pleashures is Avril Lavigne. Not because I think her music is extremely good, but because it brings up my mood, and the message, even presented in a simple, straight forward way, describes my way of thinking very well.
Or at least, it's about the attitude. An attitude that I wish I had.

There is this song called "what the hell" and I really liked it the first time I heared it. It's about breaking loose and going crazy, after an entire life as a good girl. I related to it quite the lot when I first heared it in ... what, 10th grade or something? The end of 9th I think.

Now I relate even more.
People that meet me today would probably never believe so, but I am the biggest whimp you'll ever meet. Or at least, I was. Even as I was troubled with stuff and always faught with my parents, I have ALWAYS been a good kid. Didn't smoke, drink or anything. Didn't even ditch school on my worst days.
I'm rather haunted by morals and such, but lately ... I noticed that not giving a fuck, actually feels rather nice! Wonderful, actually.Putting my own happiness above ... well, everything (within reason, naturally) is the best decision I've done in ... ever.

Now, this new "style" that I've been raging about with has caused MANY problems that I'd rather NEVER deal with. Funny thing is, as longs as I don't let them mess up my head, I don't have to deal with them either. BRILLIANT!

You should try just saying ... "what the fuck? If it's fun, that I wont object to it!"