TheKaless

I'll probably make a video about this at some point because this is something I feel very strongly about. It's also a bit of a touchy subject that no one seems to agree with me on, which is why I keep putting it off ..

Your life is in your hands. What you do with it is up to you. 

Omfg shocker, right?
I like to watch YouTube videos of people doing really cool stuff or videos of really cool places, and I know a lot of other people love that too. Then I look at the comment section, and what do I see?

"I want to go but I'm broke af"
"I want to try this so bad but I have no money"
"I tell my parents I want to go there and they just ask me where I'll get the money for that"

Well, yeah. Where are you going to get the money for that? Where are you expecting to get money overall?
This is coming from a person who didn't really have allowance. I did get a small amount of money once per month (about 30$ maybe? The currency is weird these days) and other than that, we worked on a "ask what you want and maybe you'll get it" system. This is partially because my parents are slight control freaks and would like to know what I spend money on by buying it themselves, rather than just give me money. I think the system sort of worked though, because buying useless bullshit became much harder when I had to ask them for the money first.

Some people are born into this world with advantages that others don't have, and some are born with disadvantages. So what?
Your complaining is not going to change that fact. You saying it's unfair that some people are basically bleeding money while others are straight out bleeding, is not going to make a difference. I know it's unfair, but that is the playing field we have to work with. You need to figure out what will be your best method to get somewhere, and not compare your recourses with someone else.

I feel like I am a good person to ask for advice because I'm good at breaking down the problem and ask very specific questions, which results in specific answers and advice. I'm not all that good with general advice because I feel like it's much easier to forget and execute.

This is my specific advice for those that need money to do the things they want:
Get a job.

That's another shocker, right? I'm sure you've never heard that one before.
Saying that you don't have time because of school, that you have anxiety, that nobody wants to hire you ... those are all excuses and lack of will. Sorry. You need to bend and get your ass in a position that makes people want to hire you (that sounded kinda wrong but don't take it that way) OR you need to find an alternative. 

There are so many other jobs that are not in retail and require no hiring, you just need to work extra hard and be a little creative. If you think you can do a job well that you don't really like, then good for you! However, I will recommend that you go like this:

1. Find something you like that you could put X amount of working hours into (art, writing, media etc.)
2. Find out what needs are within your field. What do people need your talent for? (you should check out online freelance sites for small jobs, but they're rarely good pay)
3. Figure out how you can satisfy a certain need. You want to deliver a service or a product, but what it should be MUST to correlate with what people need/want.
4. Research, figure out what people have done before and see if you can find guidance on how to bring your product or service into the world, how much you should charge for it and how to market it to the right crowd.
5. Work very, very hard and don't make excuses. If your reasons to postpone work are good or not is irrelevant to a potential consumer. They don't care if you had homework this weekend, they just want what you offer.

Now this sounds a lot like you should start a business, and in a way you are. How much money you make is unknown, but if I assume that you're a student then you probably wont make so much that you need to actually start a business and deal with taxes and so on. I currently do have a small business through a class at school, which is why I'm all up in this right now. Consumers, target group, demand, needs and how to satisfy such things within a market; these are all things I am currently being taught to think about all the time.

I'm basing this around the concept that you have some kind of skill that you can turn into a product or service. If you're good at drawing, you could illustrate someone's work or start your own drawn series of some kind. If you're good at writing, you could make articles for online magazines or make a blog. If you can sing or find yourself funny, you can entertain people. Figure out what you have and why someone needs it. I'll say this a thousand times if I have to.

"But I don't have anything that I'm good at!" 
Ok, that's probably true. What do?
Get good. 

*shameless plug*
I'll be starting a series on my youtube channel about this, because I'm currently in the process of doing it myself as well as it being the focal point for most of my studies. You should check it out, because I'll be honest and kick your ass if you start making excuses. We're in this together. 
https://www.youtube.com/user/TheStrangerKaless

If you can't get a normal job because of X reason then this will be your best shot. It's going to be hard and you probably wont do it. I would love to see you prove me wrong though. I wholeheartedly want to you to prove me wrong because I, as one human being with dreams to another, wants to see you chase your dreams. Recklessly and happy.

I don't know why I look like such a sad puppy but there you go!
So, right now I'm doing some quick editing work in premiere before I finish the last cover picture for my practice exam. When I'm done with that I just need to get the text on there and then I can move on to the presentation.

The presentation is the thing that worries me the most, as well as being the thing I'm the most confident of. Oral presentations overall don't scare my too much because I am confident in my ability to speak, and on top of that I've also got a bunch of training and experience with oral exams. HOWEVER I have never had an exam just like this one, this one being a media exam to present a product from a given assignment. I don't know where to start or what to say.

With an oral exam in history, social studies, English or anything like that, you get a topic on the spot and you're supposed to discuss it. You don't have to present anything youv've made and explain why, you just need to tell the facts that you know while briefly reflecting upon them and while using fancy words of the subject.

With a media exam like this ... I'm just not 100% sure what to do or say, let alone when and for how long those things should be spoken of.

I've noticed that not knowing what to do seriously puts me into a bad mood.

On a final, pretty unrelated note:
I've been thinking that maybe I should put more efforts into writing books, compared to what I've been doing for the last ... well, while.
I still want to do videos, and I honestly don't mind if they never get lots of views and stuff like that. However, it's a fact that I'll eventually need something to live off. In the perfect world I could do travel videos and videos to support a community of dreamchasers, as those are the things I love the most. Silly creative things that could entertain would also be nice.
If I am to be realistic, I'll never be able to make a living off making videos, which is ok but at the same time it forces me to think of what I can do to live, while still supporting my hobbies and passions. To me, writing seems to be the answer.

I've always been writing and I'll always write, no matter how many breaks I take or how long they are. Writing is one of the most settled parts of me as a person, and I'm not expecting it to go away anytime soon. Based on how publishing in Norway works, writing also seems like a reachable goal for me to make a living off of. It's something I could do for a living.

Those are things that I have been thinking.
What have you been thinking of?

Why hello there!
Don't mind me, just sitting here writing letters and wondering if I should stay up longer to edit videos that NEEDS to be done like ... now. There's a video that should have been made yesterday (though I'm thinking of moving it to next Monday) and then there's just a bunch of stuff on a very long ASAP list. I hate the ASAP list.

Practice exam is on Friday, so at least I have some time to get my stuff sorted and all. Had a photoshoot for my assignment today and I got some pretty decent pictures out of it. Now all the remaining work lies on the editing and presentation. I need to know why I do stuff, not just how, and that's the part that worries me a lot. Anyway ...

I got a vlog that should be edited today and I have a couple MinA videos that should be edited ASAP. Staying up all night to do these things was a habit for me before, but I decided to stop it because it was not a very wise choice for my health.

Writing letters is nice though.
Writing books is also nice. Really nice, in fact.

Soon I'll be able to do it more.
December, oh December. Maybe I should write a poem about you. My poems are pretty simple and generic but they sound nice so who the damn cares.

Hey there!

My darlings! HAI!
It's currently 02.37am and I should probably be going to bed soon, but I think my parents still have friends over and I don't really like being the first to go to sleep. As a matter of fact, I highly prefer being the last one to do so for some reason. I just feel much more at ease knowing that people are done running around doing whatever, and that they're all in their rooms- Maybe it's a control thing, but that's an unresolved issue for another day.

Today I went to work, and it actually went kinda fine. No big problems, except for the fact that this was the day of most pissy customers ever. I typically don't get too many mean or rude customers where I work, but today was different. Not that I care too much, I just like it better when they're nice and stuff.

I also started watching a new Kdrama with Oppasan today. We did spend 4 hours on "Cunning single lady" the other day, but it's really hard to keep going when the main character is such a shallow bitch ... that's why we started "she was pretty", the one Siwon of Super Junior is in. We only watched one episode, but so far it seems good. There was this proper punch to the feels, and I don't even know what, who or how I want it to end. I just want people to be happy.

I am also following "Oh My Venus" which is another drama that is actually still airing. It's 4 episodes in right now, and it's absolutely reminding me of why I don't typically watch anything that is airing. I NEED MORE. Episodes air on Mondays in Korea, and are usually subbed by Tuesday. That is still days away, and I can't tell you enough how much it hurts to know that after every episode, I'll have to wait another week for the next one. It's going to take 12 weeks before I get to see the (hopefully) glorious end, and just the thought is making me cry a little. This all means that the drama is, as of now, very good.

A drama that I've been wanting to see is "Heirs" because of it's raging popularity and so on, but I'm having a hard time getting around to it. For the most part it's because I feel like it's the kind of show that I'll be continuously be shouting and screaming at. A frustration series filled with broken hearts, misunderstandings and stupid decisions that make no sense. It's a teenager love drama tingy with an elite setting. It's probably good but it's going to sting at all my feels and right now, I can't do that.

Other than that, I don't have too many thoughts on dramas. I'm trying to watch them as often as I can, but with end-of-the-year school work and all, it's a tight race of priories. The quee of videos that needs to be filmed and edited is stupidly long as well, so one can safely say that I'm rather busy these days. It's stressful, but feels good. Better than being bored.

Have a wonderful night and enjoy the rest of your weekend, lovely little creatures~

When friends get boyfriends, it never goes well for the friendship. That's a pretty sad fact to start the day with, isn't it?

I keep complaining about my friends a lot on a bunch of different platforms but it's seriously bothering me these days. I have one friend in Oslo that I talk with on video chat pretty often, but other than that I'm lucky if I hang out with a friend even once a week.

I'm lonely, ok?
Not ok ...

I have a few friends that, even though I'd like to think they're not consciously using me, only come to me when they need my help. They are kind and we have fun together, thus I don't typically mind, but whenever they want to have fun, I'm not on the list of people to contact. Maybe I'm not asking to hang out often enough (I hate doing it for some unresolved childhood reason) but I just feel a little ... bored.

My life is ok when I'm on my own, because I'm not expecting much from anyone. It's worse when I have fun, kind and warm friends that I only see a couple times a month, even though we live like 20 minutes away by buss. I find it strange that people who are so close can be so damn far away, because they aren't prioritising you.

My initial point was "boyfriends are the worst because they get to spend time with my friends who never have time for me already" and even though I am guilty of that too, I sort of hate it. I love the thought of my friends finding love and being happy with someone, but my biggest wish in that case is to also find some sort of friendship with that significant other so that the three of us can have fun together. I don't care if my friends kiss og cuddle a little (sucking face too awkward) so I don't really mind spending time with a friend and her boyfriend.

I don't want to be completely forgotten when a friend gets a boyfriend. If you spend time with him 4 times per week, can't you meet me for only a couple of hours just once?

I'm not going to lie and say that I'm not lazy. I really, really am. However, I'm also one that typically seeks out stuff to do out of sheer boredom, or a driving wish to fulfill some dreams or whatnot. I just tend to be a bit busy because boredom is the worst thing I know.

But right now, it's getting a bit too much. I currently have 2 major assignments that needs to be turned in tonight and tomorrow evening. Then there's a mock exam on Wednesday, and later this week we start with practice exams. On top of that, I have 2 books to write as well as 3 videos that needs to be edited + a bunch more that I need to film first.

It's sort of nice to have so many things to be done because I can at least feel as if I'm doing something productive with my time, but I'm getting a little tired from it all. The most bothersome things is knowing that all the work in school is going to take time away from doing the things that I actually love to do, and that I hope will bring me closer to my dreams. But in time, those things will be done too, right?

I wrote another text for the book I'm publishing myself, and it's sort of sad. It made me cry while writing it, which was unexpected. I don't typically cry over my own texts or stories. Maybe I'll tell you that story sometime ...

Anyhow! I'm currently exporting a video that will be uploaded tonight as soon as it's finished, and then it will probably be about time to sleep. Tomorrow is another day and the beginning of another week. It's tiresome, but at least christmas it coming closer and stuff. I know it's still early but it's filling me with all the cozy feels, so I'm going to give it a pass!

How about you? Feeling the christmas?

I just wanted to share it with you because it was so cute and precious and I have a soft spot for old, lonely people and it just punched my heart a lot so here you go.
Not gonna lie, I cried a little ._.

So I've been thinking about my websites, and what to do with them to better sustain their quality. I currently own two domains, one being MDTlore.com and the other being TheKaless.com

Currently only TheKaless is being used, though I can't say I update all that often. Partially because I'm using weebly.com to make and update it, but it's a bit of slow and jidgy work, if you could understand what I mean. It's not that easy to go in and do a quick post, and the site also bugs a lot. Blogger is far easier to me to keep updating regularly.

However, weebly does have a lot more flexibility when it comes to customising my site. Not as much as I had while using that old mac thingy where I could make websites, but that one had no support for comments, so that's not really an option.

Another option would be wix.com, a site I don't have any proper experience with. I did play around with it for a little while, but it's a paid service if you don't want giant banners of ads saying Wix.com all over the site. Weebly has taken that turn too though, in recent times, which is partially why I want to move it.

In theory I could code the site myself or use something like wordpress, but to be completely honest with you ... I'm always drawn back to blogspot. It's neat and easy, quick to update and even though it lacks a bit more in customization, I have seen some pretty good blogspot pages out there. Kalel Kitten is a great example. Couldn't even tell it was blogspot for most of the time.

My blogspot has a bunch of views throughout it's time, most of it coming from a period of VERY frequent updates and a lot of pictures. OH, I just remembered. I had totally forgotten about the fact that blogspot allows you to put pictures in your posts directly from your webcam. It's very good for lazy people like me.

So all in all, I'm probably leaving weebly behind. It's been luring me with the crazy high page views I've gotten throughout the times, but I'm just not good enough to staying on top of the page management there. So I'll be around here.

I will need to delete a few posts and tune down on the rants a little bit, as they just feel a bit ... childish and unprofessional. Then again, I do need somewhere to get those things off my chest. Perhaps it would be alright if I just wrote those rants a bit better, with actual points and well formulated thoughts. That's for future me to figure out though.

For now I'll focus on getting a good design for this site. Wish me luck!

I just want you to know how awesome this is~~

Currently on the floor.
Drinking wine.
While my parents laugh their asses off while gossiping with their friends.
After 8 hours of work.
What an evening.

This is actually one of the best things I've seen in forever. Obvious bias. I'm part of it. I'm a panda within it.

Ollie is great. His video is better than mine. Not to be comparative, but did you see it? It's fantastic~

I just wanted to share this with you because it is absolutely amazing. I love the original song and all, but this is really at a fantastic level. Enjoy!

Hiiii
Are you still there?
It's been a while ... quite a while.