These days there are many small things bothering me. Overall I've been feeling better for quite a while now, and I haven't had as many issues with myself and my self esteem. Now there are only those little things that keep me low. 

Not having a good time at school.

Being kinda lonely. 

Not being on weave length with anyone really. Like I'm not at the same stage in mind and opportunity as anyone. Kinda sucks. 

Pretty tired. Got back into the sad habit of not being able to sleep well again. 

At least I got back into playing some games that I like, and I started to think more about where I want to go and how to get there. I have a couple of fun things planned out for the fall and then there shall be christmas and snow and all that stuff. Winter will soon be upon us, and if you didn't know, the Norwegian winter is like 5 ish months long. Then there are about 4 months that are cold and full of rain. We have 3 months that are fairly warm (and by that I mean above 10C). I mean, welcome to Norway! 

But yes; the little things that are keeping me a little gray. Not really anyone to fault for it, it's just one of those sad facts and I'm not really sure of what to do about it. 

I just wish I got comfortable with people easier. That I could feel the closeness of a friendship sooner. Sure I've had my fair share of shitty friendships and relationships of different kinds, but I don't feel particularly scarred by any of it. I just want to be able to make good friends. Fun friends. And I wish it didn't take so long for me too feel connected and to feel close and comfortable.

Then again, I guess that could be a good thing too. 

Damn, I'm really writing fast right now. Would be a good time to write on my book I think. I'm writing fast, I got my mind full of thoughts that I could convert into a story and I've also got the "feel" of writing right now. Too bad I seriously need to try and get some sleep. If I can't, and I end up rolling back and forth for hours like last night, then I'll pick my laptop back up and write on my book. Sounds like a good deal to me.