When friends get boyfriends, it never goes well for the friendship. That's a pretty sad fact to start the day with, isn't it?

I keep complaining about my friends a lot on a bunch of different platforms but it's seriously bothering me these days. I have one friend in Oslo that I talk with on video chat pretty often, but other than that I'm lucky if I hang out with a friend even once a week.

I'm lonely, ok?
Not ok ...

I have a few friends that, even though I'd like to think they're not consciously using me, only come to me when they need my help. They are kind and we have fun together, thus I don't typically mind, but whenever they want to have fun, I'm not on the list of people to contact. Maybe I'm not asking to hang out often enough (I hate doing it for some unresolved childhood reason) but I just feel a little ... bored.

My life is ok when I'm on my own, because I'm not expecting much from anyone. It's worse when I have fun, kind and warm friends that I only see a couple times a month, even though we live like 20 minutes away by buss. I find it strange that people who are so close can be so damn far away, because they aren't prioritising you.

My initial point was "boyfriends are the worst because they get to spend time with my friends who never have time for me already" and even though I am guilty of that too, I sort of hate it. I love the thought of my friends finding love and being happy with someone, but my biggest wish in that case is to also find some sort of friendship with that significant other so that the three of us can have fun together. I don't care if my friends kiss og cuddle a little (sucking face too awkward) so I don't really mind spending time with a friend and her boyfriend.

I don't want to be completely forgotten when a friend gets a boyfriend. If you spend time with him 4 times per week, can't you meet me for only a couple of hours just once?